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♥FI, I despise instability, embrace reality, hurt too easily, trust too willingly, hate goodbyes, speak my mind & live to meet the maker. I know that i was born to shine. Future baker/photographer/musician, watch me.

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Monday, November 30, 2009, 10:57 PM
camp

camp is...

tomorrow

ohno, gg.




2:03 PM
cafe world~

"i'm gonna be a noob and try playing cafe world :D"




12:17 AM
bam!

You won’t relent until You have it all
My heart is Yours

I’ll set You as a seal upon my heart
As a seal upon my arm
For there is love that is as strong as death
Jealousy demanding as the grave
Many waters cannot quench this love

Come be the fire inside of me
Come be the flame upon my heart
come be the fire inside of me
Until You and I are one















Saturday, November 28, 2009, 10:17 PM
gu-ches

I MISS YOU ALREADY, gu-ches

)’:




Friday, November 27, 2009, 11:56 PM
seconds

I got my

SECOND PIERCING

today!




12:58 PM
iggyyyyyy


hi isabelle ng, i have alot to learn from you, really. Love you.





12:48 PM
kimchi :D

i wonder who justaperson is.
(:

i'm still tired from childrens camp, gg. but it was fun and a goood experience!
Whooo, went to eat korean the other day, rocks ;D















12:34 PM
greater

I GIVE UP!








12:27 PM
Up.

You're the God of this City
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You are

You're the Light in this darkness
You're the Hope to the hopeless
You're the Peace to the restless
You are

There is no one like our God
There is no one like our God

For greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this City
Greater thing have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this City





11:56 AM
l:

i just deleted my whole post cos i didn't see the point in telling you how much you hurt me when you wrote that post. but guess what, i just did. thanks, you're a really good friend.




Sunday, November 22, 2009, 2:45 AM

heart




1:57 AM
lachrymosity

lachrymosity

  • Weeping or inclined to weep; tearful.
  • Causing or tending to cause tears.
  • given to shedding tears readily; tearful.




1:05 AM
crack

i tried. i really did.







Tuesday, November 17, 2009, 11:48 PM
empty

You know, sometimes i just really don't know what to do. with everything thats around me blowing up into bigger things than it actually should be. i'm just completely lost in my own world, which i know is bad but i just can't help it? i guess, in a sorta way. i'm a daydreamer, thats for sure. i stone most of the time, i generally prefer to be alone but i like having friends which totally contradicts the point but yes, friends are key in life, i know that. friends are important, and i'm blessed to have many. there may be quarrels and fights and all, many quarrels and fights. some of them solved but some left as it is. when i think back, i think its my fault. i really think so, maybe i was too selfish or too childish, maybe i shouldn't have made such a big fuss out of things, maybe i shouldn't have gotten pissed, maybe i was just being petty. i don't know, i really don't. it dawned upon me today that i feel very alone, at least inside i do. i feel, empty. and then i question myself, why? but i can't find an answer. i. can't. shitty, what to do what to do what to do...






11:32 PM
in the eye of the beholder

What is beauty? What makes a person beautiful?

True beauty comes from inside, at least, that's were true beauty starts. Many people have thier own concepts of beauty, but I have seen physically beautiful people who are really ugly on the inside. True beauty come from self respect, and selflove, if you love and respect yourself, you will see and feel the true beauty within yourself, once you do that, it will shine through to your physical beauty, and no matter what you look like, people will notice this inner beauty within you.
(:

















Monday, November 16, 2009, 9:41 PM
i♥chrissyquekjiayi

i love you, CHRISSY QUEK JIA YI ♥
you totally made my day yesterday :D

hah, our awesome buttkicking shooting skills plus sam's long hands own, yo! but you're very berry cute, your cheeks hurt now cos of last night (: cos sean and eduard were doing some stupid netball dance and they were growling :P we landed on the floor, rolling around in laughter :D and because we are such smart people, we know sean and eduard's weaknesses! we're awesome and cool huh ;)













6:48 PM
they are yours

Lord, when you are glorified my heart is satisfied to know all praise and honour are yours. and when all creation sings, to you the king of kings we know, all praise and honour are yours. they are yours, they are yours. all praise and honour are yours, they are yours, they are yours.









6:29 PM
adore-able ;)

you can't blame others when they ask you if you like someone when you're obviously openly flirting with them. reality check dude, nice people ask out of concern. and, Urgh, thats the song i already posted!


adore-able ;)






Sunday, November 15, 2009, 10:48 PM
skinnylegs ftw!

i am DEAD BEAT!
missions fundraising was tiring, realllllyyyyyyyyyy tiring. but fun and enjoyable!
had 2 hours of sleep last night ):

i actually have loads of things to post, but i'll save it for next time. my brain's not working anymore, die! l:

heading to bed soon, NOW! (:












10:41 PM
punch

damn, Urgh





Thursday, November 12, 2009, 11:25 PM
ferbbbbbbbbbb

Bow, chicka, bow-wow
That's what my baby says
Mow, Mow, Mow
And my heart starts pumpin'
Chicka, chicka, chew-wop
Never gonna stop
Gitchi-gitchi-goo means that I love you

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11:04 PM
shock me pretty

TEYONA IS SUCH AN ASS!
ALISON SHOULD HAVE WON ANTM, grrrrr >:l















12:16 AM
orjktt <3

dear olivia rosemary jane kaiyisa toast tan,
please don't emo :D
i love you





12:12 AM
UHUHOH

i'm gonna be busy like hell soon! Ugh.
i hate it when someone tries to copy me just to impress another person.







HI TESS, I MISS YOU (:





12:05 AM
rislowz

SHE MAKES ME LAUGH :D
she's damn cute la.





Tuesday, November 10, 2009, 6:14 PM
R,

i think i've fallen for you ♥









12:12 AM
bestfriend

the definition of bestfriend. what is it.
i really give up. i give up on having bestfriends. i have no more faith, no more.
i don't believe in the term 'bestfriend' anymore.






someone save me, i'm dying.




Monday, November 9, 2009, 4:43 PM
tumblr

i'm using blogger like tumblr, damn.





4:34 PM
love?



http://fc02.deviantart.net/fs38/f/2008/355/f/6/definition_of_love_by_xxIMPERFECTIONS.jpg



Love is hard. Love hurts. So, why love at all.
Love is, just a dream. You're just a dream.





1:47 PM
kewwwt bois


heh, ♥





1:45 PM
my immortal beloved

My thoughts go out to you, my immortal beloved.
I can live only wholly with you or not at all.
Be calm all my life, my all. Only by calm consideration of our existence can we acheive our purpose to live together.
Oh continue to love me, never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours.




1:24 AM
Heartbroken :l




Friday, November 6, 2009, 5:54 PM
damn l:

i feel miserable. i'm gonna try and cheer myself up.
F21 and threadless, make it happen.





5:31 PM

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4:31 PM
Your Love Never Fails



i love it.




3:34 PM
♥

i have a thing for bengawan (sp?) solo cakes (: they appeal to me, heh :D anyway, i have no mood to post anything, or do anything l: damn, it sucks like crap :S so i'll just post pictures, what i do best, heh :D














♥




Tuesday, November 3, 2009, 10:52 PM
sheet

damn, i'm quite disappointed in myself. Because i'm giving up.





Friday, October 30, 2009, 11:42 PM
funny shit.



HAHAHA.




10:54 PM
many thanks

THE SCHOOL YEAR HAS ENDED! O:

i was actually looking forward to this day, but you know what? it kinda sucks. but i have to say its been a great year! thanks to many, of course. Don't know how i'm gonna survive through the holidays without you guys l:

Tess: Its been great getting to know you better this year :D Really enjoy the times we had together, doing whatever stupid or funny stuff :P Thanks for being the one which would listen to me go on and on complaining and stuff, admire you for putting up with it (: Thanks for trusting me enough to tell me things, i really appreciate it. I must say, you are an awesome recess buddy and of course, a fantabulous shopping buddy too :P I love you alot, and i'm definitely gonna miss you during the holidays, shopping k? ;) Fingers crossed, hopefully we're in the same class next year

Kai: Wah, i have alot of things to say actually, but i'll just summarise. You've been a great fav. senior, but of course. An awesome sponge, i bet you're happy to hear that. I have no idea how we've become so close, although we might have had some rough patches here and there i still love you no matter what, you should know that. You mean the world to me and i treasure you the most, so sweet right? i know :D I really hope that we'll still continue talking next year? not sure whether we'll drift apart again, but whatever it is, just be happy. don't emo/ano anymore, you'll break my heart if you do. but even if we actually do drift apart, even if i'm sad that i won't get to talk to you, i won't worry that much. cos you'll have your beloved (: don't know what i'll do without you. Pains my heart to see you sad, pains my heart to see you worry. Be strong k, love you with all my heart

Boatbuddy: Dude, haven't talked to you in ages, but anyway, thanks for always being there for me, never failing to cheer me up even when i'm super sad, you always manage to put a smile on my face, even a laugh (: I guess you've been fine? Your boat hasn't overturned and it won't ever overturn, you'll sail from one island to another smoothly, trust me (: Even if there are storms, you'll pull through, i believe in you :D I know we don't talk as much as we did before, but i guess its alright. Btw, i like your haircut, very kewttt. love you.

Shaki: OH, my dear wife/husband! i hope your bracket isn't poking or hooking your gum now x: go put the wax thingy thingy k? you've been awesome, really ;) i couldn't have survived through training after training without you. You're always the one to encourage me, spur me on. The one who would always comfort me and say things which would make me feel better. The one which never fails to brighten up my day with your random dances and awesome singing :P Gonna miss all that during the holidays. The times where you would randomly pop into my class in the morning and talk to me, then get distracted and walk out to look for someone else :D no idea what i'll do without you, love ya!


more to come soon...




10:12 PM

SOTA
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Thursday, October 29, 2009, 6:17 PM
shingz

“When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.”

“Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.” -

“Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired.”

“Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.”

“Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss.”

“Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.”

“Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.”

“If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,”

“Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.”

“Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.”

“During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore.”

“My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.”

“Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.”

“Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.”

“I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.” -

“When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love.”

“When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.”

“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Brad Pitt.”

“You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.”











5:52 PM
when the oceans rage

































i don't have to be afraid




3:38 PM
you.

If today was the last day time saw me, what would you do
If today was the last day you talked to me, what would you do
If today was my last day on earth, what would you do
If today was the last time you would hear my voice, what would you do
If today was the last time i told you i loved you, what would you do
If today was the last time you ate ice-cream with me, what would you do
If today was the last time you ate with me, what would you do
If today was the last time you gave me a hug, what would you do
If today was the last time you called, what would you do
If today was the last time we laughed together, what would you do
If today was the last time we went high together, what would you do
If today was the last time we camwhored, what would you do
If today was the last time we played ball together, what would you do
If today was the last time you baked brownies for me, what would you do
If today was the last time i went out with you, what would you do
If today was the last time i ever went to camp with you, what would you do
If today was the last time you made me happy, what would you do
If today was the last time we had tea together, what would you do
If today was the last time you dried my tears, what would you do
If today was the last time i wrote you a note, what would you do

but its because of you that today's not the last day (:







12:02 AM
thursday (;

i'm superduperultramega happy (:
omgomgomgomgomgomgomg.

its thursday, ohyeaohyeaohyeaohyeaohyeaohyea *smirks*
heh, i won't give my reason for being so totally high and happy. but i normally hate thursdays :S cos there's training. aiya, i'll just give on of my reasons. cos i, yes me, am sick! but thats not the main reason, i hate being sick actually. i don't even know if i can go for funfair on friday, which sucks cos its supposed to be fun and all. and who the freak likes being sick during the holidays hmm? damn, ok, thats not a reason, i strike it out. I'm kinda bummed actually, cos i'm missing school. damn, wrong time to fall sick. plus i have to usher on sat for sounds of hope, in a blazer. speaking about blazers, can someone lend me one O: I NEEED IT, badly. :l i tell you, i had such a hard time figuring out how to read my report book k. i took half an hour to understand and another fifteen minutes trying to find out what class i'm being promoted to, and guess what? i realised that they didn't put down the classes :D i'm such a smart ass hmm?





Saturday, October 24, 2009, 9:53 PM
to treasure

'this pain i feel won't go away'

what the shit la, i'm screwing up stuff, like big time.
common sense tells us that you won't bring any hurt or pain upon the person you love most right? that you won't make her feel so like...yea, damn. this shows that i have no common sense, or something along those lines. i have no idea why this keeps happening, but it sure doesn't feel good, believe me. but heck, i'll just give her her own space, yes! thats what i'll do. i hope she's okay though, she didn't seem very fine to me just now l: i don't have to worry about her reading it, cos she's so gullible that she believes i have a twin which writes this :D funny girl, i am worried for you now.

treasure- One considered especially precious or valuable.
Any person greatly valued or highly prized.

PB camp was the bomb, yo! it was friggin fun i tell you, and i think we really bonded as a PB, really felt it, especially today <3>

'please talk to me, i beg you'






Friday, October 23, 2009, 8:24 AM
all i hear is raindrops

its fridayyyyyyyy,
i'm really happy today, i have no idea why (:

someone tell me why? :D


in the library now, its damn cold as well, grr :$ my fingers are gonna get so cold that its gonna be numb and they'll just fall off my hands O: gg, then i can't play piano and guitar anymore ): but the good points of having no fingers is that i don't have to train anymore, awesome shiz. BUT it won't happen in a million years la. so why am i even thinking this. i wanna quit so bad, but i won't won't won't won't (: i'm gonna stick to it, no matter how mean coach is, respect man, i'm learning that. nic and mel are just beside me on their own computers and they are both damn funnny :P they quarrel like little kids and call each other stupid =.=


nic: "why are you so mean?"

mel: "me?! mean?!"


heh, both are them are very very cute, :D nic's an 'awesome' counseller, according to herself but i don't dare say anything but agree to her if not she would scold me and give me that killer stare with those beady eyes of hers (: which are very very scary, trust me. you know, i realised i haven't blogged about hongkong yet l: heh, sorry veli much, i kinda forgot. got so preoccupied with like getting back to reality that i forgot about how much i had in fantasy.


so hongkong! was awesome shit. shopped like a mad woman, bought so much stuff k. i went there with my luggage half full, came back with my luggage like bulging in every direction cos of the amount of new stuff that i bought. but it wasn't all for myself loh, i bought for my friends too, so nice right :D ohoh, and i had to carry this reallly huge hand carry onto the plane cos we all couldn't stuff our stuff into our luggages. shopped at hell alotta places like ladies street, sogo, central, H&M, causeway bay. HELL MAN, h&m 'ftw babyyyy! shopped at zara quite alot, the whole of hong kong is one season ahead of singapore so for about 3 to 4 months i'll be wearing clothes that other people can't buy from singapore, heh, be jealous! :D giordano at hongkong is hot i tell you! awesome jeans, bought like three pairs, plus its much much much cheaper there. bossini over there is quite okay too, wayyyyyyyyyyyyy better than the ones in singapore. wah, talk about the food! shiok, chachantang for the win! love cafe de coral and fairwood. fairwood has the best char siew and bubble tea :D they brew their own bubble tea, not buy form the factories and stuff so it really tastes great! i love the roadside chachantangs :D they have great gongzaimeen, beats singapore food by alot! they have very very nice charsiew there, its super juicy and all! so besides all this shopping and eating, went to visit some people like aunty fanny and aunty doreen. love aunty doreen's house, there's a recording studio in their house, and i tried it out, shiok! she was mom's bestfriend, didn't know till my dad told me not long ago, sometime during the hk trip. so we had a great time there, dinner plus uncle danny who was visiting tooo gave us beer :D it tasted great! and aunty rose snuck durian in her luggage from singapore to hongkong, so smut (: went to some church on sunday, i wanted to cry during their service while they were having worship cos i missed like my own church back in singapore :'( and i fell asleep during the sermon, HHAHAHAH! my dad was like laughing at me and he asked my sister to wake me up but they both didn't want to so i woke up myself :P i wanna move to hongkong, :D only for the shopping and eating :D not like for the church and all.


anyway, there's continuation of camp later on, at 4.30. it was quite fun yesterday, we got back the same trainer, the one that brings loads and loads of snacks for us,he's nice, really nice. so tomorrow will be a very busy day! rush down to church after camp closes for mission trip meeting and boomerang express thingy. OMG, i'm finally going on a serious serious mission trip, very glad (:


everything's fine, happy?





Thursday, October 22, 2009, 10:44 PM
you.

All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why’d you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I’m officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today
I’m officially missing you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

All I do is lay around
Two ears full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all
I don’t know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say baby safe to say
That I’m officially missing you

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way
To let go of you

fell in love with the song :D
http://www.youtube.com/user/Jayesslee#p/u/0/DtXr0pIRSg4







11:59 AM
is there love? no

gees,
i'm not allowed to say damnit, my dad says that its swearing,and he made me go to dictionary.com to check out what it means l: urgh.

1. to declare (something) to be bad, unfit, invalid, or illegal.
2. to condemn as a failure: to damn a play.
3. to bring condemnation upon; ruin.
4. to doom to eternal punishment or condemn to hell.
5. to swear at or curse, using the word “damn”: Damn the torpedoes! Full speed ahead!

whatever, thats shit. i swear alot now, no idea why. i know its bad but right now, i don't exactly give a shit about anything, yes, meet the new me. the bad bad bad bad new me l: anyway, i'm in the computer lab now and its cold, my fingers are gonna turn numb soon ): heh, the people in the lab are so cute :D it was actually closed but they turned the sign the other way around so that it would say open and they came in. now thats called smart, but naughty la (: i like, but guess what? i wear a tie and i'm not supposed to be tolerating this kind of behaviour, heh (: talking about being a prefect, there's camp today, till like TEN AT NIGHT but their probably going to drag it longer so urgh, i'll reach home so damn late tonight. and guess what, i slept late last night cos i was waiting for my annoying as hell of a sister to get off the computer. she used to hog the phone to talk to her boyfriend 24/7, but noooo. her boyfriend's in china so now she can only webcam him and so now, she hogs the computer. before this, she didn't even go on the computer. she only used it like once or twice in two weeks to play restaurant city?! restaurant city okay?! who the freak plays that, she has no life, thats why. anyway, back where i was with prefects camp. kinda glad that its today, get to skip training :D i wanna quit netball so bad, but i really don't want to abandon the people in my team as well as my seniors l: speaking about seniors, kaya. damn, what am i to do, i feel like shit. i don't know how to talk to her, whenever i try to she just walks away or appears to be uninterested, plus i have to see her soon, during house comm meeting. i have no idea whats wrong with me, if i treasure and love her that much then why would i want to put her through all my shit and why would i want her to talk to me so badly if she doesn't want to? i guess i have to learn to let go, its hard, freaking hard. favourite seniors don't come by so easily yea? i never knew that i would lose mine. BB's been acting all weird lately, no idea whats wrong l: its like their all ignoring me or something, but nevermind, not for me to say. i guess when they want to talk to me they'll look for me? hopefully, maybe, but you know what? doubt it. the only reason why i can rant all i want here is because not alot of people read this blog, which in my opinion is good :D i regret alot in life, really. but i know that once i've lost something, i can never get it back. no matter how hard i try, no matter how much i want it, no matter how i try to fix things, i've learnt that they'll never come back. and because of that, it just makes me want to cry. i've lost enough people in my life i just don't want to lose anymore. but life hates me, its taking people away. whether i like it or now l:

sucks to be me.




Wednesday, October 21, 2009, 11:20 PM
crawling backkkkk

Urgh, i feel like crap.
i hate trainings, trainings are starting
i hate school, i have to go to school
i hate life, i have to live it,
damnit,


i have no idea why i feel like this, why suddenly i'm all negative and emo or whatever shit. i don't know whats wrong with me, i'm not supposed to be like this. i never was, i guess sitiuations change, people change. Whatever. i think i've changed, i don't know in a good way or a bad way :l what am i to do with myself? i don't know. how am i supposed to face life, reality, myself for that matter of fact? i don't know, not a single clue. i've never felt this alone in my life, never. i always had the friends around me, the people to enourage me. but now, i mean they are still there, but i guess i'm tuning them out? why? i ask myself this question all the time, W.H.Y ? maybe its my stubborn character, or maybe i have set such high expectations for my friends, my family, myself that i just get disappointed time and time again because they're just unrealistic and unable to acheive. so now i know, the problem lies with me! me, myself and i. it would sound selfish if i uesed it in another way but in this case, its pathetic, and stupid. this life i'm living compared to the life i used to life is totally different. why? i ask again, why? i think i've just lost all faith in myself, i don't have that strength or motivation to pull myself out of this dark period, so to speak. i know i seem happy and cheerful on the outside but i guess thats really not how i feel? i can be all smiles with you but i may be hurting real bad inside. i'm a great actress, that i can say. and of course, a great liar. you can get lessons from me to learn how to lie, heh :D my heart's been broken too many times i've lost all hope, all faith, all love. i want it back, but it doesn't want me. its running away from me and that causes me to just let go, once and for all, so, goodbye.





Tuesday, October 20, 2009, 11:41 PM
till the end

Nothing can separate
Even if I ran away
Your love never fails

I know I still make mistakes
But You have new mercies for me everyday
Your love never fails

You stay the same through the ages
Your love never changes
There maybe pain in the night but joy comes in the morning

And when the oceans rage
I don't have to be afraid
Because I know that You love me
Your love never fails

The wind is strong and the water's deep
But I'm not alone in these open seas
Cause Your love never fails

The chasm is far too wide
I never thought I'd reach the other side
But Your love never fails

You make all things work together for my good




Thursday, October 15, 2009, 2:26 PM
goodbye reality, hello fantasy


I'm levaing for the airport soon :l
good thing i guess, going on a short vacation
escape from reality for awhile
escape from the hurts and pains
i'm determined to enjoy myself :D
i don't really want to care about what has happened or whatever
hong kong's my great escape (:


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1:16 PM
falling

Sometimes we fall down and can’t get back up
We’re hiding behind skin that’s too tough
How come we don’t say I love you enough
Till it’s to late, it’s not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won’t come
We could make a feast from these crumbs
And we’re all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you
What would you wish you would’ve done

Yeah… gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we’ve been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
Every second counts on a clock that’s tickin’
Gotta live like we’re dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we’re dying

And if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbyes
Should be so careful who we live out our lives
So when we long for absolution
There’ll no one on the line

Like we’re dying oh - like we’re dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live - like we’re dying

We never know a good thing till it’s gone
You never see a crash until it’s head on
All those people right when we’re dead wrong
You never know a good thing till it’s gone




Sunday, October 11, 2009, 10:04 PM
In all things

No, i won't go along with the crowd
They've refused for so long to deal with God such that they've lost touch not only with God but with reality itself.
a life renewed from the inside out and working itself into your conduct as God accurately reproduces his character in you.
No, i won't go to bed angry.
No, i won't use anger as fuel for revenge.
Be gentle with one another,
Be sensitive.
Thanksgiving is our dialect

So, i ask, how do i lead a God-fashioned life?

Do these actions-
the good, the right, the true

Don't grieve God,
Don't break his heart.





Thursday, October 8, 2009, 7:47 PM
paradox of time

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

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7:43 PM
f.

fuck you. you told us not to talk back and now you talk back to your own mother, fucking idiot.

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Monday, September 28, 2009, 9:44 PM
cry, crying, cried

i really miss you.
i'm asking you to come back.
but i know you can't anymore
the past two days have been a flashback
one which i can't handle alone
one which i swore i never would have wanted to experience

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its too late.


Sometimes I wish I could save you, And there's so many things that I want you to know. I won't give up 'til it's over. If it takes you forever, I want you to know.




Sunday, September 27, 2009, 9:18 PM
all is lost

i.feel.like.crap.someone.kill.me.

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Tuesday, September 22, 2009, 11:15 PM
effffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff


peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeved. screw off.


i hurt myself today to see if i still feel, i focus on the pain, the only thing that's real.

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Monday, September 21, 2009, 10:14 PM
shout unto God!



The enemy has been defeated
And death couldn't hold You down
We're gonna lift our voice in victory
We're gonna make Your praises loud

Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
Shout unto God with a voice of praise
Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
We lift Your name up
We lift Your name up

to me, it looks like JYC when we worship.

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7:15 PM
short

wasted my day away today, oh well :l woke up at 1, watched tons of movies, played with my not so lil brother and did one chapter of history.

things i have accomplished today: nothing

told you tim made me look short

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Sunday, September 20, 2009, 10:52 PM
tears to forget

i was supposed to wake up at 9 to mug, but guess what? didn't happen. i turned off my alarm when it rang and slept all the way till 11. i know, i'm a lazy ass. i studied math the whole weekend, i'm superduperfrigginultramega proud of myself, (; went down to chruch, painted words, bbq.

today was a blaaaast. Tess came to church, yay! it was anniversary, so special special special. mugged in church while they were having YC with timkong, funny guy eh :P very very very productive, he can be my study buddy. went to jo's house for dinner after. the chua's party was greaaat! veli veli fun, heh :D

I THINK THAT KOR SEAN AND KITA ARE THE AWESOMOEST PEOPLE ON EARTH!
theyarefriggincool&funny, hee.

kita, sean and eduard gave me some 'talk' on the way to the bus-stop, and whatever they said was true. i myself know it, but i was just avoiding it. oh well, my stubborn eyes have finally opened. (: i love you guys alot ♥

i think i'm gonna break a record in my dad's grounding book. i'm probably gonna be the first, ohwell. i'm totally prepared for it. i'm gonna be blacklisted O: oh no. nevermind, everything has its firsts. (: it amuses me how my older sister has never gotten grounded. btw, she's 16. oh wait, lemme see, she doesn't go out. UHAH! and, i go out. now i see, now i see. but nevermind, i'll earn his trust slowly, i know i will (;

oh, i finally brought out my camera this weekend. haven't used it in ages. i'll post some of the anniversary pics up here beloww, ok, nevermind. go see them on fb, heh (: oh, i love this one pic with me and kong, cos it just shows how short i am compared to him :P i wanna get a nikon D50, lovin' it. i love taking pictures of babies/toddlers, they're just super kewwtt, pinch pinch their cheeks. i just realised, my contacts are damn annoying today, my eyes are starting to itch x( i'm gonna pluck them outta my eyes :l

i have a complicated life, i have complicated friends. i don't know what some of them want from me, reaally (: oh wellos, what to do what to do.

poeple stop and stare, we're traffic-stopping

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Friday, September 18, 2009, 9:16 PM
that fire you ignited

I study in a smart class, they managed to unblock facebook blogger and all (: HAH, very very smart. Hmm well, today was average i guess. LA/gel was funny, ms li wrote some website on the board in the com lab that led us to some korean boy band thing, ewwwwwww. She likes korean boybands, & she thinks they're hot. joke of the day, wins hands down. we crapped gel away, again (; ms li started talking about how her teacher in sec school called her cancer, cos she killed every single teacher. bwahahah, what a joke, seriously. Oh, they called her dumbbell as well, poor thing. She told us about how hurt she was when her teacher asked her to break up with her boyfriend, she went "I was so hurt" and we all started laughing!

talked to BB during recess, miss her alot x( told her quite alot of stuff today, not in detail, but breifly, made me feel better, but not by alot. but to be honest, i'm quite worried for her :l Just like how she's worrying for me. i don't like it when other people make people i care for sad or angry, pisses me off TTM. i know she has her problems, and i feel useless cos i don't know how to help her :l

So bb, if you read this, you are born to shine, i love you.

i guess thats the reason why i don't like telling people my problems cos i don't want them to worry. Oh well, what can i do? what can i say? but just wait and see, whats going to be, whats meant to be. Even the people closest to you, the people you think they know you best, the people who you trust the most, can disappoint you, can hurt you, can ignore you, can lie to you. we're all imperfect.

i've drifted apart from someone, and it feels like shit. cos she's the one that used to matter the most to me and she's the one that i used to trust the most. but i can't do anything about it, sadly. i guess i'll just slowly let go of it and one day hopefully, forget.

guess what? :D i didn't crap my whole day away today, i actually studied, and revised my work, and finished my homework, for once (;

'God my God, oh i cry out, your beloved needs you now. God be near. oh calm my fear, and take my doubt.'

'all of my life, in every season, you are still God, i have a reason to sing, i have a reason to worship'

live to love.





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1:44 PM
>:{

wtf, i am pissed. blogger just deleted my whole post >:{

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12:21 AM
dare to dream

All men dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds, wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act on their dreams with open eyes, to make them possible.

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Thursday, September 17, 2009, 10:09 PM
shadowing you


i hate people who tag my in those fb thingys. whatever bestfriend shit, waste of my time >:{

anyway, eoy's are near, started studying and its driving me nuts. can't take the pressure and all. but i think i'm not pushing myself hard enough, not sure. oh well, had chinese oral today. they asked whether i like secondary school, i said yes, i lied, big time O:

i'm kind of in a dilemma. i'm not sure if everything around me is real. my bestf's, my friends, my seniors, family everything. i don't know who to trust anymore :l its not something that i have choosen and trust me, its not a great feeling but it just dawned upon me that they all don't actually know me.

i can live my whole life hiding my real self from them and they won't know, thats how great of an actress i am. school sucks ttm, i want to drop out, but guess what? i can't! Eric Dill ♥

its a love-hate relationship between netball and me


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Wednesday, September 16, 2009, 9:26 PM
a-mat-u-er

test test!
lavalavaboomboom, heh (:

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